Nightmare

last night I was in a crowd of well wishers all seeing me off. I couldn't tell if it was a plane or boat I was leaving on as there were too many people. I was surrounded by a warm glow and love was all over me. It felt great to have so many saying goodbye, waving, cheering, adoring me. I turned to leave the crowd to venture forth in my destination only to realize, I didn't plan on traveling. I didn't plan on leaving my family, or friends to go off alone with none of my loved ones. I started panicking, unaware of who scheduled this trip and why wasn't I informed of the itinerary. Panic turned into all out fear, I was sweating, my heart was beating hard and fast. I looked to see what mode of transportation I was to go on and there was none in sight. There was nothing to see but a blank. I turned to run back, run down toward the crowd of well wishers, the ones who love me but, my arms were caught tight, splayed out to the sides as if held. I couldn't run; head turned, the crowd was gone. I was falling, falling, falling...